The art of allowing yourself to achieve your dreams

When you have spent years telling yourself that you are a loser, and you cannot do anything right, it is difficult to move on, and chase your dreams. There is a real danger for me to indulge in negativity. I have made the decision to work on writing something substantial, and it is damn scary! I find myself wondering if my life, and the things I have learned are applicable for anyone else. I wonder if it is interesting.

Then, I get over it. It does not really matter what happens with the finished product. Even if it is just an exercise in self-awareness, it will have been worth it.

I am still struggling with self confidence, and I have to make a decision every day. I have to decide to chase my dreams, and if it turns out that my first attempt is not good enough, I will have to regroup and try again.

There comes a time where you have to tell yourself to shut up and just do it. It’s like the nickname my FB friends gave me, ¬†Swoosh. That is enough evidence for me to put aside my insecurities, and do the damn work.

After all, I have nothing to lose. I just happen to have every thing to gain.

What is the worst thing that can happen? Worst case scenario? I will have something written which I worked hard on, and I will have remembered the lessons I have learned.

So, what is the lesson? Get a grip. Grow a pair. Get on with it already.

I am on page 62. (Double spaced pages.) It is rough, and there is a lot of editing and revising that must be done, not to mention more to write. I am pleased with the progress I have made, and I am excited to keep working. This is my dream. Who am I to ignore my dreams?

If the losses I have seen this year serve any purpose for me at all, I need to remember this:

  • Life is short.
  • You have no guarantees for tomorrow.
  • If you wait until you are ready, you will never do anything worth while.
  • Do what you love.
  • Love what you do.
  • Tell the people you love how much they mean to you.
  • Easy come, easy go.
  • Just do it already.
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Photo credit: Me- May, 2015- University of Minnesota, Minneapolis, MN