Important. Just what exactly does that mean? Valuable? Rare? Earth shattering? Perpetual?
Aside from the things society tells us we should place value on, how do we go about determining the importance of situations and objects. How do we assign value to people?
We are programmed to believe we have to achieve importance in order to be complete human beings. If you stop to think about it, this prerequisite to achieving personhood is almost unbearable pressure.
Perhaps the real question is: what is this unseen force doing this programming? For me, I think it is all on my own accord. Waiting for the world to change? Waiting for a sign indicating I matter?
Whatever. Seriously, why do I put myself through all that nonsense? When do I get to be good enough? I have days where I am confident, which are interspersed with just as many days with zero confidence.
I am starting to think this is normal. I don’t have to be so hard on myself for the bad days. Everyone has days, weeks, or even months where life seems to be a wreck. Of course their ego suffers. Only a true jackass would not feel like they needed to regroup or reevaluate their lives.
It is perfectly acceptable to not have all the answers.
It’s alright to be nervous when you are entering strange territory.
There is no shame in admitting you need help or guidance.
I am learning as I go. The future is bright as long as I allow it to be. Let’s see what new adventure life has in store for me. Worst case scenario? I have to change direction later. No big deal.